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I'm back in my room. I'm coming back 4 my Muharram hols. I don't know just thought I needed to be away from the maktab for a few moments. Saw Jaja and a few other fellows on the journey home. A few casual words and I kept quiet. I don't know why at certain times I like to keep quiet to myself. the next thing I'll be really noisy. That's me.

zzzz

G'night.

190790

35 days to Pre-Trial? dah ready?

Selspres came out. I had Mod. Mod was tough.. let's say it rattled my brain. Selspress .. came out with a list of eligible fellows and as usual, it didn't include me. I'm dying to go to KB but ..since... I'm not an important fellow here, I can't go.. but someday, I'll be important!
My heart now feels so leonely .. she hasn't written in for weeks and I'm alone here.. S, .. nah.. I can't accept her though I still like her very much. I 'm waiting for someone .... but till when? Maybe I was destined to lead this kind of life but destiny can be changed, I know deep down there, there is one for me.
My studies? I think my performance, alhamdulillah has gone up a bit. I aim to do this till SPM. I'll strive for good results in quiz, tests etc. But the journey's still long.. I don't give a damn about it. I've got to d it.
This is all my hopes, confession. God give me strength to go through all of this.
Pet.. you're what you think .. think positive .. smile.

Sayonara.

PET

Penyokong Pasukan Netball MRSM Jasin Tegar Tahun 1990

Pada tahun 1990, secara kebetulan den mula menyokong pasukan netball (bola jaring) MRSM Jasin. Ada beberapa kenalan den yang bermain seperti Eda, so den pun turun support. Maybe it was for fun, or just to be different. Yang pasti, I was the sole male consistent supporter :)

Jasin menang peringkat daerah mengalahkan Sek Tun Perak. It was a good match la .. overall, team Jasin memang better. Tapi, amoi shooter Tun Perak tu terrer woo .. rupanya dia main basketball juga ... patutlah her throwing motion macam baller.

Highlightnya, den ikut team pergi ke peringkat Melaka. Kat level tu, memang Jasin tidak dapat lawan sangat. Seingat den, we won one and lost two I think. Yang paling den ingat tentang trip tu ialah berkenalan dengan 2 adik freshie, Hiza dan Hazdiana.

Memang kena kutuk dengan bebudak ni. I think pernah sekali settle the store. For me, it was harmless, and nasib baik, Cikgu Mala supported me. I just didn't care and did my own thing. Am proud of what I did, coz one of those rare moments masa Jasin, aku berani kerana aku tahu aku benar.

gambar sekadar hiasan. Kredit ratuonline.wordpress.com

Prep Malam di Dewan Selera

Kalau prep malam kat Dewan Selera dulu memang pengalaman yang unik. Apa tidaknya, sebelum buat kerja atas meja, students termasuklah den sekali, pasti akan 'sapu' meja makan yang digunakan untuk study. Bukannya, apa.. meja tu memang melekit permukaan sebab baru di'mop' pada waktu petang. Guna kertas A4 yang direnyuk, selepas itu ha ... tenyeh meja makan port study for a few minutes.

Yang bestnya, bila tamat prep, boleh terus pekena minum malam yang disediakan. Biasanya teh tarik dan kuih. Layann...


Oh ye .. sekarang MRSM Jasin dipanggil MRSM Tun Ghafar Baba ... :)

170990

Today the PPSPians 90/91 received their badges. When I watched them receiving their nametags,  swearing in as PPSPians, a tinge of sadness came over me. My thoughts went back to last year. Last year, well.. it was terrible. I had too many failures.. BIP, PPSP.. her... I don't know why God put me through all these trouble but at least I've got some experience.
I was jealous at other people particular the LDP's & PPSP's for their success. I blamed them for all my failures .. but now I know it is me who controls my own destiny.
Well, thanks to all those buggers, idiots who taught me something and not forgetting... my friends.
Well, I've got to go.
Arrividerci.

140790

37 Days to Pretrial

Today I had my 1119 Exam. My god it was tough. I didn't know what to expect anyway so I hope I can get at least a C4. I didn't do my best, that is for sure.
The BWP elections were announced. A few surprises, but my choice won, though not all. They must be happy. As for me, I went to Jasin, got a new haircut, mended the pants, bought the mag and went shopping. It was a great trip. Took me one and a half hours only. Damn someone stole my pencil.
Tonight, I wrote to her. I'm now wondering .. has she forgotten me? I hope not.
Jeez, I'm feeling sleepy already. Time to zzz... Chow.

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Today I took the real Lisan BM test. I don't know but I think I did quite okay. Hope I'll pass. Tomorrow which is a few hours from now, I'll be facing my 1119 exam. The 'real' one. Plain great.
To tell the truth, I'm still thinking a lot about her .. don't know why but .. whatever it is, I like her very much. She can do almost anything to make me forget her ... sorry I still remember you. Sometimes, she gives me signals that she likes me but sometimes ... holi ravioli .. she makes me sick.
Sometimes I like her, sometimes I hate her .. especially her guts, but generally.. I LIKE HER. When her h/r teacher  wanted to see me, I knew what she wanted to say. She advised me to study first and find girls later.. okay Mrs A.. you're right ... but I'm going to stick with her. Who knows I might even ...?
Oh well, that is too far in the future. But, God permit me, I'll give my best shot. To me, this is no 'puppy love'. It's something different.. I can feel it. I will keep calm and keep it within myself but someday it'll explode.
I'm trying to pull my guts to talk to her. If I do it, no harm done I suppose.
The BWP election fever is coming to it's climax. Tomorrow is teh voting day.. I don't know who will win but good luck to the candidates. I've been pestered to vote a few fellas already.
Well, I've got to go now .. I've got work to do.
Ciao.