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Today the list of possible LDPs came out. I lnow a few of them.
Good luck to them for their interview. This brings back memories of last year .. I didn't get LDP, I was teased by a lot of idiots, she got it and I felt quite sick with MRSMJ. New..it still lingers in my mind ... of that particular time, my emotions were a mix of disappointment, jealousy, hatred and sadness. It was a trying time.
Luckily, I've managed to shook up all the effects save for one. Her. She's the living memento of that particular time. I've learned a lot.
Alhamdullillah, thanks to Allah The Merciful, Norhiza & Dian have started (for me) wearing tudung. Let's say it made me happy. Though, they won't know ... never mind .. at least I know.
Today, I had a heated with Zahir 46. That fellow. All I told Ferdy was to button his shirt and guess who came to give me a point or two in ordering people? I had to do it cos I'm the class president .. kang Allah tuntut kat akhirat baru tahu.
Today, is a milestone of memories & responsibilities & new experience. Oh yeah .. I fasted today. Got to go...

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During class hours, I felt sleepy, maybe becuase last night I slept late. Ph well, success doesn't come easy. Alhamdulillah, now .. I feel peace with myself. I've now realized that I'm attaining the goal to become a good Muslim little by little.
Now, with discipline, I've manager to lessen her influence over me. Thanks to Allah The Merciful.
Oh yeah, the maktab team won the Jasin district debate finals. Wow, more success for the maktab.
Now, for the first time, I've found the missing 'inspiration'. I must work harder for success is in my hands.
Work for success, success will come.
That's all for now

TO KNOW YOURSELF, LOVE YOURSELF

Terima kasih Cikgu Jamil

In honour of this man, I shall write this post in English.

He taught my class English in form four and form five. He was the only teacher who had faith in me, and I wished I knew him better. He gave me a Raya card after my SPM, congratulating on my success, the only teacher. One of my few regrets that I truly regret was not looking for him after I came back from the States. Perhaps, he could have given me some better wisdom.

So, if there is a teacher/teachers from your MRSM days whom you cherish dan love, and is still alive, look for them, shake their hand and say thank you for the all good times and apologize for the bad times.

Cikgu Jamil passed away in 2012. AlFatihah to him. Terima kasih Cikgu.

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Today, everything happened at the usual pace except for two significant events

Cikgu Arif 'sounded' me at the PSP .. next time I'll be serious with the teachers

Prep kat DK ... got laughed over a few silly things .. when they are going to grow up?

Other things, is about her. I don't know but I've got the funny feeling that she wants to bug me again. Oh well, just a feeling

Ice gave me some advice regarding my problem

"Stick with her .. forget the girl in this maktab"

I still haven't the courage to talk to FF coz maybe she's still mad at me. I can't even look her in the eye. I watch her from far though.

Pre-Trial's coming nearer.. now I'm feeling the squeeze.
Got something to do .. so was chow dulu ...

Pet

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A lot of things happened the last eleven days. Among them:

1. I went to Kota Bharu (it was a great trip) 25-29 July
2. For the first time, I've finally made a firm decision
3. Papa came back from Sarawak
4. Lina gave me her photo
5. I know what must I do .... STUDY HARD ...
6. I am now feeling uneasy ... hati tak tenteram 

NOW, IT'S TIME FOR CHANGE...


.. better to do it than never to have done it all ....

G'night

Gambar Ceria Dulu2

Gambar kami yang diambil di Dewan Besar .... event apa am not sure ...

Rasydan, Amrizal, Saya, Azhar Ahmad, Syukrani, Rosli Mat, Hafiz, Bob, Rizal Aman, Apai

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I'm back in my room. I'm coming back 4 my Muharram hols. I don't know just thought I needed to be away from the maktab for a few moments. Saw Jaja and a few other fellows on the journey home. A few casual words and I kept quiet. I don't know why at certain times I like to keep quiet to myself. the next thing I'll be really noisy. That's me.

zzzz

G'night.